Winter selfie. #typical #snow #rexburg #lovehats #wintertime
Look at this cutie that I played with today. #adorable #yearling #socute #baby #horsegirl
Yea. Idaho is pretty cool. #sunset #idaho #nofilter
It’s time for the wild turkeys to return. #winteriscoming #wilton #home #wildturkeys
We have a lot of animals. #wilton #home #thanksgiving
Spending her last days in my lap as we watch Netflix! #daisy #bestkitty #shessick
Yep. My best friend in the whole world is back in the United States!!! #sohappy #trev
I think someone missed me while I was gone. #surprise #babypillowpet #happyhappy #flowers #roomcoveredinstickynotes (at Home!)
"I love you."
So what do you say or do when someone tells you “I love you” in a serious way and you haven’t even been dating? One date, two occasions where you have held hands, one including the night they tell you they love you. No kiss, and no second date yet.
What do you say? What do you do? How do you know if they mean it in the way you are thinking? Do you ask them or talk to them about it?
If you ever need someone to vent to who won't judge you, I'm here for you. And I'm sure all of your followers feel the same way!
oh. i haven’t posted on here in forever. so i’m sure mostly everyone has forgotten about me. haha. but thank you so much for that.
I read your text post and I just wanted to say keep your head up! You're beautiful and I hope you find "the one" soon!
thank you. i know things will be just fine. it’s just kind of hard right now. and i don’t need to find whoever i’ll end up with soon. i’m not lonely or anything. it’s just that i cared for colton so much. but it’s okay.
You are beautiful, and your personality is just as amazing! I will always remember the times we shared together eating lunch in the crossroads. I miss those days!
honestly. I just saw this. and thank you for that. it’s something i definitely needed to hear tonight.
I MISS YOU!
i could probably say the same if you weren’t anonymous.
Well. Heartbreak is fun. That’s probably why it happens so often to me.
Seriously. So, I don’t know if any of you remember Colton. He left for his mission March 2012. We had a thing before he left and we were really into each other and I cared so much about him, and him for me. We wrote a billion letters in the first six months of his mission and emailed from then on out. Last Christmas, he sent me a little notebook and on each page, he wrote down a reason for why he loves me. It was the best thing I have been given in my life. It made me so happy.
So, we have been emailing since he’s been gone. He comes back in 147 days, or 4 months and 27 days. I got an email from him last week that said this:
"So I’ve been thinking a lot about what its gonna be like when I get home, and I just wanted to let you know that I’m kinda scared of the idea of having someone waiting on me. Like I just think it’d be best if there’s nothing official going on as soon as I get back. You’re still my best friend, and I’d still love to hang out when I get home, I just don’t want to start off with anything more than that. So yeah, whatever you want to do is fine. I just wanted to let you know where I’m at."
I then sent a response back basically saying I wasn’t expecting anything to happen, and I didn’t even know if he felt the same but that I do. And I felt like he wasn’t saying all that was on his mind, so I told him to tell me how it is and be honest. Today, this was the email that I received:
“So yeah, I’ve been thinking a lot about it and my feelings have changed and we shouldn’t plan on having anything when I get home. I’m sorry, but I just don’t feel the same anymore. I really hope we can be friends when I get back.”
Well, there goes that. I told him it’s fine and I just felt like there was something he needed to say and I thanked him for being honest. Of course we will still be friends. I don’t let things like this get in my way of friendship with a person.
But it’s hard. I’ve been so down all day long and it just hurts. He made me so happy. He made me want to be a better person. He showed me how much I could care for someone. I have never felt anything for anybody like I have for him. And it’s just hard to know and understand that I don’t have that anymore. And for people who tell me, oh. He will come home and see you and hang out with you and change his mind. No. I’m not letting myself get my hopes up. That’s why I expected nothing from him when he came home in February. I knew things would be so different and I didn’t want to hurt myself. I am hurt, but not because I had hopes for us. Of course I did, but I kept myself in check. It’s just so hard when you care about someone so much and they mean the world to you. I would do absolutely anything for him and I love him so much. He’s one of the greatest people I’ve met. He inspires me to be a better person and do all that I can to help others. It’s really going to be hard, too, because I am so close with his family. I go to their house literally every time I go home to California for a visit. They love me and I am one of their children now. I am family to them. It just sucks so bad because I have had more time with his family than I have him and I am so attached and I love them so much. With him telling me this, I’m not just losing him, but I’m losing seven other people too. And that’s going to be hard because I love them all so much.
Ugh. It seems like every time an amazing person like this comes into my life, they leave. It’s just so hard. Seriously. I dated one person while he was gone. And that lasted maybe a few weeks. It’s been almost two years and I haven’t even been interested in other people besides that one guy I dated. I know my time will come and things happen for a reason. I know that and so it’s okay that this is happening. He has more in store for him, and so do I. I just don’t know what yet. It’s just going to be harder for a little while until I can get over this.
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This is where I belong. #horseback #zoe #trailride